I don’t fit the mold

I appreciate alternative things like tattoos, piercings, heavy music, and pouring lattes. I’m an introvert. I cuss fairly regularly (Sorry–kind of). I appreciate and agree with theologians the church loves to hate. I drink. I think that every gun on earth should be destroyed, and yes, I’m anti-military. I’m not afraid to light up a cigar every now and then, and I really dislike the word “Christian.” It bugs me. I think the church could be better, and I think there’s hope. I would rather encounter God in a mosh-pit than a church pew. If I have to, I’ll die fighting for the rights of my gay brothers and sisters. I don’t think the bible is inerrant. I don’t solute the American flag, and theres no way in hell I’d sing a national anthem. I don’t fit the mold. Is that okay? 

Follow me on Twitter!

I don’t really believe in hell. I barely believe in heaven (I do believe in heaven, but not as you would imagine. Another post for another day). I would never tell someone that their actions are sinful, and I would never tell someone to be better. Be different. Be holy. Be divine. I would never tell someone they are broken, they aren’t enough, they’re incapable of experiencing joy. Every time I hear the phrase “Love the sinner, hate the sin” I want to throw up everywhere. I don’t fit the mold. Is that okay?

What’s all this about? I’ve just grown tired of hearing it. I’m wildly uncomfortable with Christians telling me I should live a specific way. What’s with the dating advice some Christian bloggers give, anyway? ‘10 Reasons You Aren’t Going to Marry Your Boyfriend’. Great post, bro. I’d rather fall in love in a bar than a bible study. I’d rather party with prostitutes than protestants, and I’d rather incarnate than preach. I don’t fit the mold, is that okay?

I think women should be equals. In the churchy context- I think women should be elders and pastors. I think women should be able to chase their dreams, have the jobs they want and make damn good money doing it. Some… scratch that- most Christians have a problem with this. I don’t fit the mold. Is that okay?

If you call me a hypocrite, I’d be the first one to agree, but I hold on to this one thing. Jesus loves me. He loves you too. Wildly. Scandalously. Just because I don’t fit the mold of the bride doesn’t mean I’m not trying my hardest to figure out how to pick up my cross and follow Christ up the hill each day. I’m not a democrat with some ridiculous liberal agenda. I’m just trying to be authentic with the stirrings God put on my heart years ago. Justice for all humans. Gay, straight, black, white, male, and female. I haven’t kissed church goodbye. I haven’t kicked tradition aside. I haven’t denounced my faith. The only thing I’ve given up is the box that popular Christian culture tries to shove me in. I’ll continue to stand up for you, and I’ll continue to push against the walls until this box begins to fall, because I think the love of God is bigger.

The church is doing some bad things. Just like the rest of us… but there’s hope. One day all things will be restored. God continues to evolve my theologies, and I’d never say I’m right; however, right now I refuse to be something I’m not. Lord continue to shape me into an instrument of your peace for all your kids- and may more rise to stand up for humanity, not by claiming to be oppressed ourselves, but by standing in solidarity with the oppressed and being a voice of hope, love, and nonviolent defense.

9 thoughts on “I don’t fit the mold

  1. I literally have no words. Everything you stand for, everything you believe, everything you fight for…just, yes. I honestly don’t think I’ve ever read anything that I relate to as much as this.

    …not to mention, it’s written perfectly. Lovelovelove.

  2. AS YOU SAY, GOOD IS MOLDING YOUR THEOLOGY … WILL ACCEPT THE POSSIBILITY OF BEING WRONG BUT REFUSING TO BE SOMETHING YOU’RE NOT. THE BEST WE CAN DO TO AVAILABLE TO GOD FOR USE CONCERNING HIS PURPOSES AND HIS INSTRUCTION IS TO BE HONEST ABOUT EVERYTHING. WHILE WE CERTAINLY MAY SEE THINGS DIFFERENTLY, WHICH IS OK AND NECESSARY BTW, IT IS VITAL THAT WE BE FREE AND SAFE TO EXPRESS OURSELVES. UNITY HAS NO DEFINITION IF WE ALL AGREE … AND GROWTH CANNOT HAPPEN WITHOUT CHALLENGE AND HEALTHY CONFLICTS. I AGREE THAT THE CHURCH HAS BEEN AN AGRESSOR (NOT THE WORD YOU USED BUT THE IDEA) IN MANY ISSUES IT SHOULD NOT BE … AND TOO JUDGMENTAL AND CONDEMNING CONCERNING THOSE WHO ARE LOST. I THINK SOME PEOPLE’S VIEW OF THE CITY ON A HILL INCLUDES TALL AND IMPENETRABLE WALLS, A MOAT, AND A BUNCH OF CANNONS … VERY UNFORTUNATE

  3. Great post! I tried to fit the mold many times…always failing miserably. Now I am very ok with not fitting the mold. God is bigger than any box or mold or whatever anyway. Recently when I was trying to figure out whether or not to leave the church I had joined – I felt God say to me “You follow Me not them”

  4. Brett, I love you and Jesus is crazy about you. That being said, he wants you to live by the word that he teaches. Yes, love is who He is, grace is His message, but obedience is what He calls us to do. Its ok to be different and not fit the mold, but when your beliefs and actions purposely go against His Word, you are missing the point. If you truly believe what you say, when you say “pick up my cross and follow Christ up the hill each day” then that requires hating sin but loving sinner. Yes, I said it. Dont throw up.

  5. This is wonderful and I thank you for writing it. It’s hard to be true to yourself in the face of such opposition, but God doesn’t live in a box and neither should we.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s