I appreciate alternative things like tattoos, piercings, heavy music, and pouring lattes. I’m an introvert. I cuss fairly regularly (Sorry–kind of). I appreciate and agree with theologians the church loves to hate. I drink. I think that every gun on earth should be destroyed, and yes, I’m anti-military. I’m not afraid to light up a cigar every now and then, and I really dislike the word “Christian.” It bugs me. I think the church could be better, and I think there’s hope. I would rather encounter God in a mosh-pit than a church pew. If I have to, I’ll die fighting for the rights of my gay brothers and sisters. I don’t think the bible is inerrant. I don’t solute the American flag, and theres no way in hell I’d sing a national anthem. I don’t fit the mold. Is that okay?
I don’t really believe in hell. I barely believe in heaven (I do believe in heaven, but not as you would imagine. Another post for another day). I would never tell someone that their actions are sinful, and I would never tell someone to be better. Be different. Be holy. Be divine. I would never tell someone they are broken, they aren’t enough, they’re incapable of experiencing joy. Every time I hear the phrase “Love the sinner, hate the sin” I want to throw up everywhere. I don’t fit the mold. Is that okay?
What’s all this about? I’ve just grown tired of hearing it. I’m wildly uncomfortable with Christians telling me I should live a specific way. What’s with the dating advice some Christian bloggers give, anyway? ‘10 Reasons You Aren’t Going to Marry Your Boyfriend’. Great post, bro. I’d rather fall in love in a bar than a bible study. I’d rather party with prostitutes than protestants, and I’d rather incarnate than preach. I don’t fit the mold, is that okay?
I think women should be equals. In the churchy context- I think women should be elders and pastors. I think women should be able to chase their dreams, have the jobs they want and make damn good money doing it. Some… scratch that- most Christians have a problem with this. I don’t fit the mold. Is that okay?
If you call me a hypocrite, I’d be the first one to agree, but I hold on to this one thing. Jesus loves me. He loves you too. Wildly. Scandalously. Just because I don’t fit the mold of the bride doesn’t mean I’m not trying my hardest to figure out how to pick up my cross and follow Christ up the hill each day. I’m not a democrat with some ridiculous liberal agenda. I’m just trying to be authentic with the stirrings God put on my heart years ago. Justice for all humans. Gay, straight, black, white, male, and female. I haven’t kissed church goodbye. I haven’t kicked tradition aside. I haven’t denounced my faith. The only thing I’ve given up is the box that popular Christian culture tries to shove me in. I’ll continue to stand up for you, and I’ll continue to push against the walls until this box begins to fall, because I think the love of God is bigger.
The church is doing some bad things. Just like the rest of us… but there’s hope. One day all things will be restored. God continues to evolve my theologies, and I’d never say I’m right; however, right now I refuse to be something I’m not. Lord continue to shape me into an instrument of your peace for all your kids- and may more rise to stand up for humanity, not by claiming to be oppressed ourselves, but by standing in solidarity with the oppressed and being a voice of hope, love, and nonviolent defense.